July 5th

Two months is too little.
They let him go - they had no sudden healing.

-Natalie Grant
"Held"

While the song I quoted above is about parents losing their child, it seems somewhat prophetic.

His heart rate is high and his blood pressure is very very low. His kidneys are no longer functioning.

We pray today for God's peace. No more pain. They are working hard to keep him comfortable.

And now? We wait. And pray. No more pain. But no more pain means no more Papa.

We have told him its okay to go. We will be okay. We have great family and friends that will help us through this.

Right now I would love to be selfish and scream at the doctors to do something - ANYTHING - so we have more time. But that is not what is best.

We got the oppurtunity to do what many people do not get to do and say goodbye. He knows. He squeezed my hand so tight.

This is all jumbled up but the gist is...please join me in praying for peace for my Daddy.